i still feel.

sometimes you're just feeling all troubled, your mind is so loud you wish you could let it all out. finding someone to talk to about your problems to has became one of the toughest things to do. you just don't know who to trust and who's willing to listen to it all and feel for you instead of just being curious about what happened to you. you once had your listening ears but they're magically gone now. it's never easy to tell just any random about how shitty life is. there's always only some whom we'll always turn to but what do you do when they're gone? typing all of these, getting emotional again and again, and bits of me is afraid that whoever who's reading this might judge me, and.. there's just too much going on in my mind right now. what have i done to lose so many of the ones who meant so much, and what happened to the promises they made, and.. and..

sometimes i think i'm fine and about to get over things soon but the other times it all comes back to my mind again and that's when the war begins in my head, every damn time.

i tried so hard for things to be good again but nothing ever works.

shit just happens all the time. different people, same shit.

pretty sure i had my faults that caused things to turn out this way, but i really tried to mend the broken friendships, i really did. sometimes i do get extremely tired, or maybe exhausted of trying but hope keeps me going, and what keeps me going, eventually kept me falling hard again and again. things wouldn't work my way. #life perhaps.

there's so much more that's on my mind i don't want to type anymore because.. i don't know what will happen if i let it all out.. this may sounds weird but yeah just take it as it is.

for now, goodbye.